wish I was a S10!

lucky girl, but I'll get there!

I WILL

I wish you all the luck in the world with stopping cutting.

I been trying for 4 years now...

hang in there, it passes

happy xmas

x

hang in there, those that are "pretty" haven't had to work for it, we have so that makes us even better than them!

read this book:

SKIN - A.M VRETTOS

xx

i know that feeling all too well.wanna chat?:)

x

of course humans are selfish.it was the only way to survive at one time.the one who had the most food, most attractive mate etc was bound to succeed the others.sadly this trait has carried on in our modern lives of abundance.it's a mere instinct that we will never be able to change.

x

Size 10?
That isn't fat.
Really quite smallish tbph.
I'm between size 6 on some things and size 12 on others.
Tbh I'm lucky if I can get size10 jeans to fit me cause I have big thighs.And fairly long legs.
But I still love my figure as much as I can.
Size 10 is not big at all.
Stop putting yourself down and help yourself realise that your figure is fine the way it is.

Jenny


-
xo

oh ok.

i dont know really.

i just think its cos there are mainly american users so we have to convert between Uk size and American size, also weight.

LOL

loves

x

damn that sucks!

i was wondering...

are you English or American?

in some entries I think you're american then I think that you're english when you say things in UK sizes.

 < me being confused

its just another sign

your getting closer to true beauty

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

its jus another sign

that your getting closer to true beauty

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

hey hey hey,

we really need to talk on msn tbqh, havent spoken for far too long!!

and btw, on your bebo, the pics of you with leopard print leggins on,   omggg ur legs are to die for!!

xxxxxxxx

hey :)

in response to your question i'm 5 ft 2

i should weigh so less for what i am i kn ow, i am ashamed...

Lovess

hellarockstar!!!

xxxx

thankyou  i love your diary to

:)xxx

Aw thank you sweetheart. i love boobs

i know its crazy,
and i dunno why we even do it,

and when are you are mynameistalulah msn?
go on like soon!!!

xxx

that is crazy!

i've never heard of that before!

your scales must be broken.

but anyway.

[simplymememe]

well you arent

and im thinkin the person who did it is a wanker.

lovexxxxxx

your beautiful, you could have him, you could have anyone.

dont argue with me, im right.

be you, you are skinny.

lovexxx

your spine

very nice keep up the good work huni

much love Amanda xxx

Why is that you feel like you need to get skinny? I am not being funny or anything I use this site to get help and be helpful. Why starve yourself than spulge? Why not eat a healthy amount? I mean I had gone through the same thing. I am still going through it now. When I was a little younger I had tried throwing it up but it didn't help it just scared everyond around me and I scared myself. Now I am barely eating but thats only because I never seem to be hungry anymore. Losing weight is difficult to do by youself? How much weight do you need to lose to make you happy? Because if I can be skinny enough to be able to see my spine I would be happy but as wide as I am that would be scary to others and my lover. If you ever need to really talk to me drop me a comment on one of my entries ok.

LadyPrecious.

Yourr nott fat!!

and everyone who cares about you needs you, aka your friends&family

hope you feel better soonxxx

:L:L

apparently i llooked horny when i was mad.

which i was not.

stupid boy.

:L:L

xx

Mann you sound like me.

You truellyyyy do!!

Like everything in there, is like the same for me,

we are doin protein in food tech lol,  but we havent cooked no eggs,
we made quiche on monday tho.....unfortunately mine was nice, so i had to eat it. (aka im fat so i ate it hahaa)

anywhoo lovexx

i'm glad your dog is ok

my dad wants to give ours away :(

all of the things on
your list applie to me too

stay strong huni

much love Amanda xxx

Glad your dog is good :)

and luck with your new school year resolutions :)

xxxx 

:L

we are like the same lol,  im a hypocrite too :L

ohh well, we only want what we want....

xx 

:L

your school sounds fun to (y)  :L:L

xx 

Whattss up?? what happened?/ :S :( :|

Lol!! like the same tbh :P i am already in top for most things.....

we shall be perfect :)

and btw does this girl have boobs?  cause that might be part of it,  and it also might be the fact that YOU ARENT FAT!!

lovexx

Iloveeebutternutsquash!!

it has 63cals for a serving-1cup

xx 

That's cool that your mom was ok with it but as for your dad, he will simply have to deal with it. He can't force you into something you don't want and neither can your mom. If anything they should support you in anything you choose to do and help you anyway possible. I know when my son grows up, that that's what I will do! Don't be so reluctant to say anything, you might end up doing what they want and you'll end up miserable. It's better not to beat around the bush.

Anywho, what I do is wait until I am completely ravenously hungry and can't wait another min. with out food ( Usually around 12-1 pm ) and eat a light yoplait yogurt and a glass of cold water. If that doesn't curb my hunger I make a big salad. Then I try not to eat anything until dinner time...which is usually when the hubby is around and I don't want to seem like I haven't been eating much lately...he'd be pretty upset because I had bulemia and Anerexia in the past really bad( still do with the bulemia and struggling with the anarexia )

Honestly what you should do is eat 3 healthy meala a day and get plenty of excersise...at your age it really isn't that hard to just go out and go for a quick jog or a long walk. Seriously, before you get knocked up like I did, you should def. take advatage of it lol. Good luck!

:)

you have my support too :)

xx

Lmaoo that is soo true  apart from u being fat part!

xxx

Your not fat!! and try not to think you are. And if you really want to lose some pounds, then get your running shoes and go go go. And also try eating slow, they you won't be as hungry. I tryed it before. Because I was eating my pizza really slow, They I couldn't eat anymore.

Take care

Thankyou :)

I shall feel better, hopefully :P

ermm i dont know how to answer your question :S

if you think being a doctor will still be good for you then go for it, but its your life, so do what you think will be best for YOU :)

much lovexx

I never had a bf and I'll be 15 in 3days!!!
and I never had my 1st kiss either.

My parents are like this,
and i have also tried and failed to purge

xxxx

[Juicyx]

rents can be ass holes sometimes

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

Omgg!! im takin food tech to!

i regret aswell :P

but people always want some so,
"yerr have some :) "

:L

and then english maths science

and

food tech spanish buisness studies and history :P

much lovexx

school starts on September 3rd for me to.
and there school iz nasty so Im not gonna eat it.
:p

Btw i just commented on entry before :L

and i feel the same about going back to school, plus there is no one forcing you to eat lunch, inless im with someone who notices and cares :L

and im startin my gcses aswell...i dunno if thats a good thing tbh :L

what u takin?

much lovexx 

Thankyou :)

i could never get away with that, my mum&dad are always checking im eating, or shoving it infront of me :|

but that is minttt!

and i dont think anyone will be dancin :L

cause its just the close family lol and my grandparents and grandmas sister are over 85 :L

Much love xxx

add me

i wanna read ur diary

and see ur pics

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

Rose is 92 pounds man she is tiny thats kinda sad and Keren too man thats too small.

Karen Carpenter

5’4

87 lbs.

14.8

I remember her being chubby but man she just looks creepy that small.

yh i feel the same

i just wanna end it all now

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

I feel like that 2...

but I do cut.

this is what this sh*t does to you right?

lol j/k food sucks

loves

me

i had apple crumble WITH custard.

so dont dare feel bad.

xxx

Thanks :)

and not really, but I watched this video at school about how they treat the animals before killing them, I most cases, and I was like I dont want to eat it inless its organic etc, and she like hates buying food that is organic/free range etc,  dont even ask why, whenever I try and explain the difference she just says stuff like 'this is how people become ill' meaning anorexic etc,  not knowing that I am already doing that....

Lol thats abit long,
but I hope you do weigh more on your period,
but I wouldnt know cause I am yet to have mine this month :|

Much love&Support

Juicyx

I've heard that before.

i think you do!

my sisters birthday is next week

i hopw i have the willpower to do that

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

i'm a size zero
yet i still hate my body

keep going girl
i know you can do i
how much do u weigh?

stay strong huni

much love Amanda xxx

its funny how the person below me thinks that you have no idea what your doing to yourself. i know you know exactly what will happen if you dont eat. we all do. we just think its worth it right? sorry your mom found your paper. my mom found my stash of laxitives and got all "why wont you talk to me about this?" there crazy

much luck

-me

G..when someone says they think your under weight...maybe you are? Anywho, I agree with the whole Japan thang! I love Japan also, their culture and fashion :) It's awesome!

:L i didnt read the title to this straight away,
and i was like wtf,
then i looked at your title :L

im a idiot.

i just thought id share that with you loll

Juicyx 

Hi
how are u?
At the end of the month I'm leaving MDD
so I wont have any Ana support or anything
I really can't afford to loose the support I have on here
so if you could please give me addresses (snail mail)
and cell/mobile numbers
please I wont be able to access the net at all
no thinspo, no pro ana nothing
just me
thats why Ineed you guys to repliy
please please repliy I cant afford to loose such great freinds
stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

drink lots of water.

when you start to get hungry do something gross instead like cleaning the toilet or cat litter.

read lildarkshadows last to entries they will give you everything you need.

you willbe thin

hang in there huni

much love Amanda xxx

sure you will!! just keep the faith, feel the burn (exercize) and dont get too obbsessedabout it yeah??

untill next time..

xx

No wayy!!

im 14 i weigh 120lbs but im 5ft5

so your kinda the same as me 

Much love&support

Juicyx

I think like that to, whats your weight&height&age??

Much love&support

 Juicyx

now. about this entry . i wnat you to stay strong . && ill keep you in my prayers.

srry bout the mean entry .obviously you have alot going on.

Maya

... I am not commenting THIS entry but I saw that you responded to my my entry. && I just want to say that I wasnt accusing you. I thought I just had the freedom to express my opinion about what I go through.  Dont make this about you. I experience racism everyday ...&& dont try to sit there && act as if you are suprised at what I had to say. Because you sitting there advoctaing for white people is not only lieing to me its lieing to urself.. I live in SC && i alwyas go thru it. sooo why would you start crying ?? When has being white ever been hard..GIRL PLEASE. cry me a river. YOU will never understand where I am coming form because you have never been black. Its silly for you to be critical with me..about somehting you will NEVER be able to identify with..

Simplymaya

Lol I hope everything goes well,

Much Love&Support

Juicyx 

aww huni thats so great

how skinny are you?

much love Amanda xxx

Thankyou, I had a freezing cold bath instead,  cause its pretty good for you aswell :)

And dont feel bad about what you have eaten, its not as if you ate 50 cakes :L

And I also hope you stop cutting.

Much love&Support

Juicyx